confused and looking for sunshine

I have come to the conclusion that the weather is teasing me. After starting my morning off perfectly (more later), I got out of bed and went straight to the gym. I was determined to get all my errands accomplished before noon so that I could spend my afternoon laying out by the pool. Apparently, mother nature prefers me pale because as soon as I slipped into my bikini the sun retired for the afternoon. At least I got to catch a HILARIOUS movie with the girls, Forgetting Sarah Marshall.

Now back to that perfect morning. I couldn't sleep but resisted the temptation to text Sam, even though I knew that talking to him would put me at ease and help me slip into my dreams. I finally dozed off around 3am, only to wake back up around 5am to my phone telling me I had a text message. I smiled as I looked at my phone and saw a text from Sam at 4am asking if I were still awake. I texted him back, he called me, and next thing I know he was pulling up in my driveway. We got back in my bed and he laid in my arms and began sleeping so peacefully. I laid there for a while rubbing his head and taking in the moment I knew would not come often once he moved away.

Now what? I feel like I am setting myself up for an even harder heartbreak once he moves away. And part of me also wonders what he is thinking and how he really feels. I know I am not the only girl in his life...but the moments we share and the way that we look into each others eyes is something that I cannot deny. For now I am taking it day-by-day and crutching on the support of my friends. Any advice would be greatly appreciated!